Time to Stop Being Scared.........................

I've been thinking about so many things lately. And like my other journals, I'm feeling different somehow. And I think I'm feeling like I've been waiting for something to happen. I think what I'm finding out is that I'm waiting for myself to make something happen. So, I've been taking matters into my own hands lately. Re-evaluating situations around me. Weeding out bad relationships and cultivating the relationships in my life that are positive and loving. Searching out new career posibilities, and trying to get over the fear of new challenges and work experiences. Trying to build my confidence. Trying to build up the courage to try something, even if I find out I can't succeed. I've always had the fear of failing and being ridiculed. But its time I got over it. Sometimes you succeed just by trying. People understand if you cant grasp something, and if their decent they wont ridicule you for it. But its always been one of my biggest fears, fear of failing............
Well, wish me luck. I'm gonna try something different. I'm scared and nervous, but I'm gonna try anyway................If I dont, I'll stop growing. And I don't want that to happen. There are so many wonderful things ahead for me and my family. I just feel it. But I have to press on.......
Till next time.............................................Maya..................