Sunday, June 24, 2007

Hidden knowledge...


I've read so many ideas on life from so many different authors searching for some hidden knowledge. I'm coming to realize that all that I need to know is deep within my being. For the first time in my life I am living each day as an adventure. I am following my heart, opening to others who need my love and understanding. I've discovered that the more love I am willing to give, the more love I receive in so many different ways. I can't believe how different my views are on life now. I have always been a 'black and white' person, but now all I see are differing shades of grey. There are so many different kinds of love to share with others and myself. It has taken me 40 years to realize this. I've always been afraid to love anyone completely, especially myself. The friendships I have now fill me with so much joy. I'm not afraid to give of myself anymore. I take joy in watching my friends find happiness in their own lives. I feel honored to be able to walk along their life path with them. Each day I wake up now, in the knowledge that it can be anything I wish for it to be. I'm the one who sets the tone for it. It's all 'me'. I create, and have created everything in my life, and continue to each moment. As I look around my home, and my family, and my friends, I realize I have attracted them all here. This is the picture I have painted in my mind. I hold the paintbrush, and I alone, can change the picture with a simple stroke of my brush. I think my career has helped me see how fortunate I am. I see so many lonely , sick people. People who need me. I go to work every day knowing that someone that I will come across is waiting for me , and needs me. I also know that they have something important to share with me to help me on my path as well.


A very special friend of mine has filled my spirit with so much happiness by allowing me to walk with them on their path. To trust me with knowing their inner spirit. To show me parts of them that have been hidden for so long...........


I hope they know how much their friendship means to me, and I hope they know how much faith I have in them . I see their inner beauty, their inner love. Their true potential.


And in saying all of this, I feel very loved today.


To my friend, This is for you:


The sun may be clouded, yet ever the sun
Will sweep on its course till the cycle is run.
And when into chaos the systems are hurled,
Again shall the Builder reshape a new world.


Your path may be clouded, uncertain your goal;
Move on, for the orbit is fixed on your soul.
And though it may lead into darkness of night,
The torch of the Builder shall give it new light.


You were, and you will be; know this while you are:
Your spirit has traveled both long and afar.
It came from the Source, to the Source it returns;
The spark that was lighted eternally burns.


From body to body your spirit speeds on;
It seeks a new form, when the old one is gone;
And the form that it finds, is the fabric we wrought
On the loom of the mind, with the fibre of thought.


From cycle to cycle, through time and through space,
Your lives with your longings will ever keep pace.
And all that you ask for, and all you desire,
Must come at your bidding, as flames out of fire.


You are your own devil, you are your own God.
You fashioned the paths that your footsteps have trod.
And no one can save you from error or sin
Until you shall hark to the spirit within.


'from the poem, THE LAW.
by Rosicrucian poet Ella Wheeler Wilcox'

Sunday, June 03, 2007

How I feel................

I took my love,
I took it down
Climbed a mountain
and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, Ive been afraid of changing
cause Ive built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older too

Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down

If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe the landslide will bring it down

landslide
music and lyrics; stevie nicks

Can't stop the change.........................

Something is happening deep within my soul..............
I see things differently than I ever have...........
I feel more deeply than ever before............
I yearn to go within, not without.......
I look at myself and everyone else around me with different eyes.................
I love more fully than I ever thought was possible...............
I cry.....................

I feel everything..............

I'm waking up from a long sleep I think..........

Maya