Seasons In The Sun........The Dance of Love...

I'm feeling much sadness today......and truthfully I don't really feel like writing. In saying that, it's probably good for me to write because sometimes the best feelings and thoughts come out in the printed word in times of sorrow. It seems like a chapter has been closed on a very special part of my life today. A chapter that has allowed me to grow in ways I never knew were possible. A chapter that tought me how to connect on a level I never knew existed. A chapter that.......................I want to keep reading forever and never wanted to end. I'm at a loss for words right now. I feel emptiness, and numb at the moment. I am questioning so many things.

I'm grateful for all the love that is in my life and has been in my life. I know that I must keep moving forward, and I trust in the goddess above to guide me on my journey. All I know for sure today is that I need to be free to love................and to receive love. Being open to love has helped me grow in ways I never imagined. I have learned more from love than any amount of formal schooling could provide me. I have discovered 'me'. I have connected with my soul, and also with my soulmates. I have soared higher than I ever dreamed I could. I reached my Nirvana...............and now I know it is there whenever I want to go there.....

Saying all this still doesn't stop my pain right now, because I feel I am grieving a loss of something that filled my spirit with light. And grieving is a natural process to healing. I have given so much thought to how to return to the chapter that is closing in my heart, but instinctively know that the season for that story is gone, and a new season is beginning. I welcome the next season, and look forward to what it promises to bring me. I see things around me so differently now, and I trust that the universe is unfolding just as it should.

Today I will let my tears come, and reminisce on the wonderful chapter of my life that I never thought possible. Today I will give thanks to the goddess above for the love she sends me.